General anxiety rant

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Something that has been weighing on me a while now so I figured I'd just let it off my chest. I don't expect anything to change nor am I asking for any kind of sympathy. This is just to alleviate my own anxiety because I am an abnormally anxious person. 
There's a couple of things that bother me but to simplify, I'll just say quality standards. I hate them, I hate seeing them, I hate hearing about them, and worse I'm a hypocrite because I have them.
There's a reason I'm posting this, even though I never post anything like this. I don't like talking about me, but this came all because a post of mine was deleted off of this one sight for the first time, (petty I know) and it's happened before other places so why does it matter now? Simple because I wasn't expecting it. I just posted it and left for a bit to watch a youtube video before coming back to see it gone.
Now I don't know why it was taken down, all I got was a 3 word reason "Irrelevant to site" which confused me. I'd made pictures of the same kind that were approved, the subject matter, the species, the style, etc. So I'm not sure what I'd gotten wrong. I decided to search around for a method of appeal or contact or anything really, but after a wasted hour of reading through sight rules I found nothing. At this point my anxiety was getting to me so I decided to give up and move on.
The same thing has happened to me before on other sights, though that was due to the aforementioned quality standards. I try to post to the sight only to find that my art doesn't meet quality standards. Try and get ANY sort of feedback and find nothing useful. 
Now I'm not saying my art is great by any means, on the whole I'm the kind of artist who thinks their art sucks no mater what, but when one gets approved and another doesn't and I get absolutely no feedback at all, I have no idea what to think. Positive feedback, negative feedback, any feedback at all would help. I can't improve, I can't fix the problems, I'm just stuck wallowing in my own self inflicted anxiety feedback loop. It seems that all posting my art ever seems to do is make me want to make less of it lately. 
Anyways, sorry for wasting the time of anyone who read this far. I just wanted to know if there's anyone else out there who gets frustrated about things like this or if it's just me overreacting because I'm just a nervous wreck.
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FrozenFeather's avatar
UGH that's the worst! i hate that feeling of not knowing for sure, it's like, yeah just give me an answer, it can be any answer but at least tell me a reason, and let me state my case. it's very frustrating :/

hope you feel better soon/now :)